consider yourself lucky~

Bismillah~
Listening to a rant by someone who is known to you is not really an easy task. If you’re a person like me (ehem) you might be basking in the stories and feel burdened yourself. I am a romantic fool (as mentioned by Nanem) in one of our outings... I imagine a married life to be so much fun and not lunging for each other throat all the times. Couples (married of course) are supposed to be two lovey dovey creatures that should roam the land. Not some fighters getting ready for battle each day! Hmm, that’s what happens to me… Usually~ (sigh)...Daydreaming again and again~

So when I heard about some ‘kinks’ in marriage(s), I am doomed to be thinking that EVERY marriage will be exactly like that. At this point of time, I eliminate other factors such as upbringing, families where you come from, your attitude and your pig-headedness (if any~)

I really cannot accept the fact that the reality is so harsh. It’s not supposed to be any problem when two people are willing to cooperate the whole time. But I do understand that an individual /a person will always have their own needs. I want this; I want that, blah blah blah ~ give me my own space kinda act! BUT it is NOT to be considered IF you are TOGETHER in this marriage! When people are TOGETHER together, you have to respect each other. You have to involve each other in any decision you wish to make. Not just sleeping together... Man, get yourself together!

Now I am ranting about other people’s problem!!

“Ehem..ehem, and this is my problem, why????”, said myself to me.

“I also don’t know…” I heard myself answered back. – The thing is I just have a feeling that I need to share this.  Not for anyone but me.

***Always, always, always in my du’a I wish for a blessed married life, being at terms with each other, because I wanna be married for him and him only, not just here in Dunia, but also fil Akhirah~***

Favorite Hindi Movie of all time~

Last night was marvelous! Watched this movie on TV2...
Yeah, Someone…Somewhere…Was Made For You~

*but life IS NOT a bed of roses ok…we live in reality~
So scram~

soothing song

Hadapi dengan senyuman 
Semua yang terjadi 
Biar terjadi . 
Hadapi dengan tenang jiwa 
Semua... Kan baik-baik saja 

Bila ketetapan Tuhan 
Sudah ditetapkan 
Tetaplah sudah 
Tak ada yang bisa merubah 
Dan takkan bisa berubah 

Relakanlah saja ini 
Bahwa semua yang terbaik 
Terbaik untuk kita semua 
Menyerahlah untuk menang

piece of ANGRY thoughts!!

This morning we had visitors from outside.

Mother and daughter…

Being in my situation is not always pleasant. I got to hear what others don’t. Not telling something top secret here. It’s my blog anyway. But yeah, still there are few exceptions about freedom of speech and freedom to express opinion. Bloggers should know about it all~

Ok, back to the situation in the office this morning.

Cutting the whole story short, the mother came to discuss (in this case; beg) for her daughter to be hired in any position. Anywhere...

You see, in the world nowadays, it’s all about Who-You-Know and Who-Knows-You. If and only if you know people, you can expect so much convenient from the other party. Of course I am not one of these people. Though I do have families in here, I don’t get in by using means of crony.  Yep, C.R.O.N.Y. I hate the word. Hate it so much.

Back to the mother-daughter thingy, no matter I hate the fact that the whole crony thing is involved here; it does not compared to the annoying feeling of hearing the Mother begging on behalf of her daughter. BEGGING I tell you~ I will not ever made my mother do that for me. I’d rather work my way up on my own. Not by having your mother begging for the mercy of other people to get you some job!

Oh, come on people...You are an educated person. A graduate from some fancy university, for the love of ALLAH~

Why the heck you let you Mom do all the talking.

I honestly hate it so much I wanted to puke!!

Damn, people… work your ass off. And let you mother rest ok. To hell you people who did this to your Mom...

*angry and piss off mode L so early in the morning too... shit~

cemas ;(

Bismillah~

Pulang awal kerumah hari ini. Petang adalah panas ye~
Makanya bila semua dah pakat balik awal, aku pun sama2 la angkat kaki..
Kat rumah tak ada apa..aku igt nk keluar semula lepas solat Asar td.
Tgok la nk beli apa2 yg patut~

Unfortunately agak keletihan yg keterlaluan..
So aku melayan tenet saja lepas Asar tu..
Aku tgok Putih (Daisy) restless. Rasanya dia masih belum mkn..
Hmm, kesiannya sayang saya..lepas Magrib mama panggil..huhu, bleeding lak kat tempat 'tu'.
Agak cemas td..mmg masa 1st pregnancy pun mcm ni. Kata pakcik google,
Bleeding adalah biasa bg mommy yg br pas deliver..huhu..

Nontheless aku cuci ngan tisu basah..diam je dia masa aku bersihkan..
Hmm, cian la aku tgok dia..
Huhu, Putih cyg~ cepat sembuh ek..rindu nk main2 ngan dia..huhu X-(

ragam 3 Januari 2012

Bismillah~

alhamdulillah selesai hari pertama bekerja dlm tahun baru..
Semangat masih tinggi lagi. Masih positif.
Cabarannya ialah, bagaimana mahu kekal positif dan bersemangat dalam apa jua keadaan sekalipn.
Aku mahu didik diri supaya tidak mudah mengalah. InsyaAllah~m

Hari berlalu dengan agak ceria. Kerja continuously dr minggu yang lepas. Tak ada apa yang special. Hanya perubahan tarikh tahun di surat2.. Dari 2011 kepada 2012.

Masa lunch tadi Kikin ada tanya aku, kenapa tiba2 suka baking?
Kak Ima (kazen) pun pernah tanya perkara yang sama.. Why the sudden craze?
Ha, aku tak boleh nak jawab.
Aku pun kurang pasti dengan hormon diri sendiri.
So all i can assume is that my PMS never end last month and it continue this month :)

wordless: only pictures

Domino's pizza..yumm

Nisa, me and Zura

kantoi lepak!

HR angels

to the rescue

kemalangan ditempat kerja

my messy workplace

a thousand years

Heart beats fast
Colors and promises
How to be brave
How can I love when I'm afraid to fall
Watching you stand alone
All of my doubt suddenly goes away somehow

One step closer

[Chorus:]
I have died everyday waiting for you
Darling don't be afraid I have loved you
For a thousand years
I'll love you for a thousand more

Time stands still
Beauty in all she is
I will be brave
I will not let anything take away
What's standing in front of me
Every breath
Every hour has come to this

One step closer

[Chorus:]
I have died everyday waiting for you
Darling don't be afraid I have loved you
For a thousand years
I'll love you for a thousand more

And all along I believed I would find you
Time has brought your heart to me
I have loved you for a thousand years
I'll love you for a thousand more

One step closer
One step closer

[Chorus:]
I have died everyday waiting for you
Darling don't be afraid I have loved you
For a thousand years
I'll love you for a thousand more

And all along I believed I would find you
Time has brought your heart to me
I have loved you for a thousand years
I'll love you for a thousand more 

Ratib Al- Attas, bacaan selepas Isya'

Bismillah~

Semenjak Aminah kurang sihat last 2 months, family aku diminta untuk amalkan bacaan Ratib selepas Maghrib dan Isya'.

Ratib Al- Haddad selepas Maghrib.
Ratib Al- Attas selepas Isya'.

Alhamdulillah, sebelum ini Sobri yang pimpin bacaan kami anak beranak.
Kadang2 Sobri tak boleh balik ke rumah sebelum Maghrib tu.. Org kerja kedai makan mmg mcm ni..jarang ada masa untuk family..

Td juga tak terkecuali...aku agak sedih disitu, ttpi nak buat mcm mana..dah kalau dia ada hal?

Td aku baca ratib lepas Isya' sendiri.entah macam mana aku rasa agak sebak..tak semena2 aku nangis~ apa tandanya tu ya? ;{

aduhai puteriku sayang~

Td gi kedai, beli salad ngan timun untuk nasi ayam. Sambil drive layan lagu Hijjaz, Puteriku Sayang. I felt like crying. Seriously~

i' listening carefully to the lyrics though. I feel far off the character said in the song.

Aku tak malu.
Aku tak solehah.
Aku tak cerdas.
Aku tak tegas.

Jauhnya lagi perjalanan untuk mem'perfect'kan sikap dan peribadi ini.

Hakikatnya aku masih rasa rendah diri. Aku mahu menjadi wanita solehah..yang malu dan tegas serta bisa menjadi kebanggaan ayah dan bonda. Walau kat mana pun aku berada.