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Sunday, July 19, 2009

life in a blink..blink..blink

What was i seeking in this so called life? satisfactions? happiness? perfection?
nobody wanted to be in a failure state, distressful.. people said that life is like a wheel. sometimes we’re up and sometimed we’re down. but not for me, i don’t think so. more to a life-long education process. where mistakes made, forgiven and try again. in the attempt of striding through this life, alhamdulillah it has been a lot that i’ve learnt, seen, heard, read about and felt…
nobody wants to face the same experience twice! especially when it is not favorable to us, of course. what we can do each tiem we face everyday, embrace it and make the best of it No, we cannot freeze the moment. but Yes, we can make that moment lasts forever and keep it beating, live it and re-live that experiences in our hearts.
when i see that tree outside of the surau (i’m @ the surau the moment i wrote this) i was thinking like how long it has been for the tree to grow there. what it had seen for all its life as a big tree at the main intersection between the mosque, and the main road of Sungai Kantan. hmm…it may have seen a gruesome accidents. hundreds maybe..or it had once or two be a shelter for the orphans, or schoole children who has finish their daily classess. or it might have been a witness for a group of bride’s escorts on their way to the reception..haha, who will ever know?!
as a living, breathing, moving flesh of human…with the akal (most valuable gift of intelligence from ALLAH)…supposedly our experience is much, much more than that tree by the main road intersection in Sungai Kantan!
have we ever put our mind to it, what will ever happen tomorrow, the week after, two month later…three years after that? have it crossed our little mind that our dreams that we built can went down the drain?
if and only if we take time to acknowledge our origins, we will definatelybe the most humble human being in the world.

Friday, July 17, 2009

silly me..



this is me lookin silly with dearest Elmo @ Alamanda.

it is alright to be silly once an a while.

doing silly, silly things with my girlfriends :)

it makes me feel good!

a piece of advice :)

Saye Banyak gak dengar nasihat owg yg experience. Tp pendapat sendiri adalah jauh lebih penting, ma. Kalau tanpa dia kamu rase ssh hati, mungkin both of u are destined to be frenz 1st. u kno wat I mean? But, wateva it is, jgn nyesal dgn ape pun kptsn yg kamu dah buat...

from sis to sis. from woman to woman. from human to human. from heart to heart :)


i'd love to share the picture i'm currently using as my wallpaper on the desktop :) the above pic is a picture of three swans resting on a lake..can you see the image they potray? three elephants :) walaupun imej yg ditonjolkan begitu digeruni (elephant), sbnrnya kamu (swan) adalah makhluk yg ALLAH ciptakan penuh dengan kelembutan, gracefullness. tough but graceful :)

hmm, about the painting ... Swans Reflecting Elephants (1937) is a painting by the Spanish surrealist Salvador Dalí. This painting is from Dalí's Paranoiac-critical period. It focuses on a double-image that causes the reflections of swans on a pond to look like elephants; the swans' necks and wings take on the appearance of trunks and ears when reflected, while the reflection of a tree-covered shore behind the swans supplies the elephants' legs and bodies. To the left is a self-portrait of Dalí facing away from the double-image. The figure of the man in the painting is Edward James, one of Dali's patrons and friends.
(sources from http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Swans_Reflecting_Elephants)


kalau kamu bace ttg Dali ni, ada rasa kesian juga sikit..his bakat/talent is one thing people cannot question about. but his way of life.. from my own personal perspective, such a waste he had to face what he had to face..


Dali juga adalah watak yg akan dibawakan oleh Robert Pattinson (Twilight) dalam filem barunya nanti :) "Little Ashes". can't wait to see that movie..

done for now :)
-happy working!-
sfzy

Monday, July 13, 2009

HELLO... :)




to know how to say what others only know how to think is what makes men poets or sages; and to dare to say what others only dare to think makes men martyrs or reformers - or both.

Wednesday, July 8, 2009

when

when..

What was i seeking in this so called life? satisfactions? happiness? perfection?
nobody wanted to be in a failure state, distressful.. people said that life is like a wheel. sometimes we’re up and sometimed we’re down. but not for me, i don’t think so. more to a life-long education process. where mistakes made, forgiven and try again. in the attempt of striding through this life, alhamdulillah it has been a lot that i’ve learnt, seen, heard, read about and felt…
nobody wants to face the same experience twice! especially when it is not favorable to us, of course. what we can do each tiem we face everyday, embrace it and make the best of it :) No, we cannot freeze the moment. but Yes, we can make that moment lasts forever and keep it beating, live it and re-live that experiences in our hearts.
when i see that tree outside of the surau (i’m @ the surau the moment i wrote this) i was thinking like how long it has been for the tree to grow there. what it had seen for all its life as a big tree at the main intersection between the mosque, and the main road of Sungai Kantan. hmm…it may have seen a gruesome accidents. hundreds maybe..or it had once or two be a shelter for the orphans, or schoole children who has finish their daily classess. or it might have been a witness for a group of bride’s escorts on their way to the reception..haha, who will ever know?!
as a living, breathing, moving flesh of human…with the akal (most valuable gift of intelligence from ALLAH)…supposedly our experience is much, much more than that tree by the main road intersection in Sungai Kantan!
have we ever put our mind to it, what will ever happen tomorrow, the week after, two month later…three years after that? have it crossed our little mind that our dreams that we built can went down the drain? :) haha
if and only if we take time to acknowledge our origins, we will definatelybe the most humble human being in the world.

Wednesday, January 31, 2007

sebuah puisi di bulan Februari … 2007

fikiran berputar ligat

pada mentafsirkan satu wajah
yang dahulu menjadi
obor kekuatan dan semangat
kini masih mampu
menyuntik satu azam
bangkit kembali
dari lembah penuh debu sengsara
hati yang pernah tempang
dikerjakan satu peristiwa
kelam menanti satu masa
akan bersinar jua
diri bukannya
penanti setia
tidak lagi
penuh berharap
tidak ku mengerti
apa sebenarnya yang terjadi
namun kupasti
HIKMAH menanti
cc taman mesra/10.48a.m/1.2.2007..

January 31, 2007 @ 6:48 pm

Saturday, January 6, 2007

semarak kasih

sEmArAk KaSiH

warna pertemuan berupa perkenalan,
adalah wangian persahabatan.

mengatur buih kemesraan pada awalnya cukup menuntut pengertian..
dimanakah persamaan?
adakah kejujuran?
bila menyusur pertalian,
kita mulai mengerti bunga persahabatan,
mekar kemesraan,
jambangan pengertian.
wangian ketulusan nurani adalah ungkaian-ungkaian yang tidak berkesudahan.
kita yang dipertemukan TUHAN,
wajar menyuburkan persahabatan,
wajar mempertahankan keluhuran.
moga ikatan yang disimpul,
mengharumi taman.
indahnya taman  yang kita cantumkan menjadi semarak kasih!


taken from an Author~

Saturday, December 9, 2006

today, tomorrow and the day after..

today, tomorrow and the day after..

i look around
i see no one
i look up
skies pour its tears
i don’t know what makes me stay
but i don’t know wether i want to go either
don’t talk about life to me
because i’m dying inside
as if no flowers could ever bloom in my shattered dreams
cold
as cold as my fate
dark
as dark as my path
deep down inside
i want to believe again
beliefs that carry my feet to the island of hope and happines
the island that once be so promising
i planted my will
but i guess…it’s not fairly enough
it’s not enough that i was told that i’m lower than lowest…
my tomorrow still clinging to my past
my horrid past
i can never held up my head in my proud self again
for my becoming is no good to everyone
dearest mama..
dearest baba..
how i want to beg for forgiveness
for i’m going home
back to both of your loving arms
back to the base that i was raised
back to mould the way i supposed to behave
back to your love and trust
home
is where i belong…
SFZY 10/12/06 1130hrs lib uitmt
may the AlMighty lend what He might to me
for I’m dead of hope

Monday, June 26, 2006

Penantian, Pencarian Secebis Bahagia

aku menanti di suatu sudut
dalam kebuntuan
kucari alasan yang kurasakan sesuai
agar tenang ombak hatiku
persoalan yang berlegar-legar dibenak
fikirku.."mengapa" dan terus kenapa…
memujuk hati agar dipalingkan duka
dan lara dihati gundah dijiwa
aku terus menanti
terbayarkah kesabaranku?
dalam penantian jua aku
cuba mencari satu jejak
yang semakin pudar (rasanya…)
pertemuan yang indah bukan menjanjikan
satu akhiran yang bahagia
ya…
bahagia sedikit jauh untuk digapai
aku pasrah?
sukar untuk dipuaskan kata hati tuntunan nafsu dan perasaan
akan tiba nanti, aku upaya……
upaya menghadapi segalanya…
3dwork_1 suara dari kejauhan?
di sini……

Monday, May 22, 2006

frust???

hmm…aku bangkit semula
dari kekecewaan semalam
aku melangkah hari ini
sebagai insan berazam baru
kumbang bukan seekor
tapi…
yang seekor itulah jadi taruhan
aku tak kesal dengan penolakan itu
tapi aku kecewa
apalah nilai persahabatan aku padanya sehingga sanggup dia calarkan maruah dan pendirianku?
tapi aku percaya ada hikmah yang tersembunyi disebalik segalanya
mengajar aku menjadi tenang dan pasrah
mujur kecewakku tak berpanjangan
aku bangkit kembali
berani melangkah!!
-SFZY ‘05-
/1310//22mei06/