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to know how to say what others only know how to think is what makes men poets or sages; and to dare to say what others only dare to think makes men martyrs or reformers - or both.

when

when..

July 8, 2009 @ 3:34 am

What was i seeking in this so called life? satisfactions? happiness? perfection?

nobody wanted to be in a failure state, distressful.. people said that life is like a wheel. sometimes we’re up and sometimed we’re down. but not for me, i don’t think so. more to a life-long education process. where mistakes made, forgiven and try again. in the attempt of striding through this life, alhamdulillah it has been a lot that i’ve learnt, seen, heard, read about and felt…

nobody wants to face the same experience twice! especially when it is not favorable to us, of course. what we can do each tiem we face everyday, embrace it and make the best of it  No, we cannot freeze the moment. but Yes, we can make that moment lasts forever and keep it beating, live it and re-live that experiences in our hearts.

when i see that tree outside of the surau (i’m @ the surau the moment i wrote this) i was thinking like how long it has been for the tree to grow there. what it had seen for all its life as a big tree at the main intersection between the mosque, and the main road of Sungai Kantan. hmm…it may have seen a gruesome accidents. hundreds maybe..or it had once or two be a shelter for the orphans, or schoole children who has finish their daily classess. or it might have been a witness for a group of bride’s escorts on their way to the reception..haha, who will ever know?!

as a living, breathing, moving flesh of human…with the akal (most valuable gift of intelligence from ALLAH)…supposedly our experience is much, much more than that tree by the main road intersection in Sungai Kantan!

have we ever put our mind to it, what will ever happen tomorrow, the week after, two month later…three years after that? have it crossed our little mind that our dreams that we built can went down the drain?  haha

if and only if we take time to acknowledge our origins, we will definatelybe the most humble human being in the world.

sebuah puisi di bulan Februari … 2007

fikiran berputar ligat

pada mentafsirkan satu wajah
yang dahulu menjadi
obor kekuatan dan semangat

kini masih mampu
menyuntik satu azam
bangkit kembali
dari lembah penuh debu sengsara

hati yang pernah tempang
dikerjakan satu peristiwa
kelam menanti satu masa
akan bersinar jua

diri bukannya
penanti setia
tidak lagi
penuh berharap
tidak ku mengerti
apa sebenarnya yang terjadi
namun kupasti
HIKMAH menanti

cc taman mesra/10.48a.m/1.2.2007..

January 31, 2007 @ 6:48 pm

semarak kasih

sEmArAk KaSiH

January 6, 2007 @ 8:08 pm 

warna pertemuan berupa perkenalan,
adalah wangian persahabatan.

mengatur buih kemesraan pada awalnya cukup menuntut pengertian..
dimanakah persamaan?
adakah kejujuran?

bila menyusur pertalian,
kita mulai mengerti bunga persahabatan,
mekar kemesraan,
jambangan pengertian.
wangian ketulusan nurani adalah ungkaian-ungkaian yang tidak berkesudahan.

kita yang dipertemukan TUHAN,
wajar menyuburkan persahabatan,
wajar mempertahankan keluhuran.

moga ikatan yang disimpul,
mengharumi taman.

indahnya taman  yang kita cantumkan menjadi semarak kasih!


taken from an Author~

today, tomorrow and the day after..

today, tomorrow and the day after..

December 9, 2006 at 7:29 pm

i look around
i see no one

i look up
skies pour its tears

i don’t know what makes me stay
but i don’t know wether i want to go either

don’t talk about life to me
because i’m dying inside
as if no flowers could ever bloom in my shattered dreams

cold
as cold as my fate

dark
as dark as my path

deep down inside
i want to believe again
beliefs that carry my feet to the island of hope and happines
the island that once be so promising

i planted my will
but i guess…it’s not fairly enough
it’s not enough that i was told that i’m lower than lowest…

my tomorrow still clinging to my past
my horrid past
i can never held up my head in my proud self again
for my becoming is no good to everyone

dearest mama..
dearest baba..
how i want to beg for forgiveness
for i’m going home
back to both of your loving arms
back to the base that i was raised
back to mould the way i supposed to behave
back to your love and trust

home
is where i belong…

SFZY 10/12/06 1130hrs lib uitmt
may the AlMighty lend what He might to me
for I’m dead of hope

Penantian, Pencarian Secebis Bahagia

aku menanti di suatu sudut

dalam kebuntuan

kucari alasan yang kurasakan sesuai

agar tenang ombak hatiku

persoalan yang berlegar-legar dibenak

fikirku.."mengapa" dan terus kenapa…

memujuk hati agar dipalingkan duka

dan lara dihati gundah dijiwa

aku terus menanti

terbayarkah kesabaranku?

dalam penantian jua aku

cuba mencari satu jejak

yang semakin pudar (rasanya…)

pertemuan yang indah bukan menjanjikan

satu akhiran yang bahagia

ya…

bahagia sedikit jauh untuk digapai

aku pasrah?

sukar untuk dipuaskan kata hati tuntunan nafsu dan perasaan

akan tiba nanti, aku upaya……

upaya menghadapi segalanya…

 suara dari kejauhan?

di sini……

frust???

hmm…aku bangkit semula

dari kekecewaan semalam

aku melangkah hari ini

sebagai insan berazam baru

kumbang bukan seekor

tapi…

yang seekor itulah jadi taruhan

aku tak kesal dengan penolakan itu

tapi aku kecewa

apalah nilai persahabatan aku padanya sehingga sanggup dia calarkan maruah dan pendirianku?

tapi aku percaya ada hikmah yang tersembunyi disebalik segalanya

mengajar aku menjadi tenang dan pasrah

mujur kecewakku tak berpanjangan

aku bangkit kembali

berani melangkah!!

-SFZY ‘05-
/1310//22mei06/

~sahabatku~

kHaS bUaT tAtApAn SaHaBaT…HAPPY 3rd ANNIVERSARY TO US!

May 15, 2006 @ 2:34 am 

Mengimbau kembali,
kenangan lalu yang sering mengusik jiwa,
bisa membuat aku tertawa,
mengeluh kesal,
dan menitis airmata.
semarak persahabatan yang terbina,
mengajar diri supaya lebih tenang dan matang.

Wahai sahabat,
sungguh ku rindu pada dorongan dan nasihatmu,
kenakalan dan kelincahan dirimu.
walau kini kita terpisah memenuhi tuntutan agama yang suci,
ku doakan kau berjaya di dunia dan di akhirat..

Janganlah dilupa pada suatu masa yang lalu,
dimana kenangan bersama masih terus hidup dan subur mewangi,
semoga dalam lindungan Ilahi…

...emm...

kadang2 sayang itu tak perlu di ungkapkan… cukup dengan perlakuan..tapi most daripada girls mesti nak bukti lisan dari si dia… tapi, pernh x kita fikir dari sudut dia pulak? bagi sstgh orang (llki) sayang adalah satu kata2 keramat yang hanya boleh di ucap apabila masa yang sesuai tiba.. sebab tu ramai (ppn) yang dikatakan demand la, manje la, mengada la…sedih betul kalau adenye pkara spt itu… jadi, my hope is that berterusterang lah… once thing been said out, u’ll feel no more burden inside of u…